A Distant Thought

Poetry

When I talk about you there’s nothing bad to say
Anxious for thoughts to fade away
Heart grey like clouds on a rainy day

Thoughts racing to and fro
It’s impossible not to follow
For it feels like there’s a tight hold on my heart
Keeping me here — back at the start

Months feel as long as a year
Too drunk on tears and emotions to stand on my own
Waiting for a message on this damn phone

Holding on tight, fighting for something that is no longer there
Sometimes life just isn’t fair
Where did the good times go?
Now you’re someone that I used to know

Time tricks the body into feeling okay
You didn’t leave me to find my way
You stayed to help me through every gloomy day

Being there even though I couldn’t call you mine
I needed a sign to make me let go
Feelings buried in the fresh December snow
Covering the bare ground outside my window

The tune of happiness in time will be sung
As I wait for my heart to beat to the sound of a distant drum
I keep wishing for this nightmare to be undone