Bitter Sweet

Poetry

You left in peace; gentle kisses and long hugs
You didn’t shrug at my tears
This tugs on my heart strings
You gave my heart wings; it fluttered around like a butterfly

We didn’t end with a fight; no threat to use your might
Knowing I’d flinch at the sight of sudden movement
Counting the days since you went away
Wanting nothing but for you to come back — be here to stay

Days were never ending when you were near
Please make your way back my dear
I fear I’m lost in my mind again
Watch me descend into the bitter end

My heart can no longer fend off this despair
As much as I try it just seems to flare into something bigger than before
Please come pick me up off this cold floor
I need you more than I need myself
Guide me through the locked door, into the light

I’m stuck thinking of the happiness I felt with you
I’m tired of reliving it through my memory
Forever wishing the words you said to me were a dream instead of reality
Maybe then I’d be able to feel free

Hoping to get a decent night sleep at best;
why doesn’t my brain just give it a rest already?
Breaths — slow and steady until I’m ready to feel okay
I know this will come one day